World of Me

Friday, December 23, 2005

College Finally

Im finally starting school at the Tech college here in Oshkosh. I go to orientation on the 4th, and to register for my classes that same day. Im excited and nervous all in one. The point of me starting at the tech is because I want to get really good grades, go for one semister there, then transfer to UWO. Why not just start at the unniversity you might ask? Because being the idiot that I am, I never took my ACT's. The college I was planning on attending before moving to WI, didnt need ACT's. So why bother? I was talking to a friend and they told me if I make really good grades at the tech, the unniversity will accept me having no scores, and just having good grades being at the tech. So thats the plan. I havent declared a major because I honestly have no idea what I want to do anymore... I love kids, I can type good, I love working with people, and something to do with buisness strikes me curious... so WHO KNOWS... I can't do much with math or science, so thats outta the picture.. ANY IDEAS????
Heres what I've been thinking....
Once I do get to the Unniversity (hoping I do well enough to transfer) I was thinking of joining a sorority. I'm friends with a lot of the girls in Zeta. And they said they'd be able to get me in, if I really wanted. I've heard a lot of positive and negative opinions about the whole shin-dig..
I've always wanted to do it when I was younger, so its nothing new me talking about it.
I just looked at it for a way to make friendships, and have fun. Thats all. I just think it would be fun to be in one.
I've heard that its pretty much like being in highschool again. Lots of girls talk shit and there are bound to be girls you dont like. Thats a given, I mean if you throw 50 girls of different backrounds, opinions, beliefs, etc. personalitys Im sure would clash. It would almost be like the real world in a way.. because you have to be able to work together with these girls. I think that if your able to do that, it would benifit you in the long run of working with different people, and friendships could become of it....

I would love to hear opinions about this..

B

Saturday, December 17, 2005

Tis the Season to be Jolly...

I absoultely LOVE this time of year!! I love snow, its just so pretty.. I have yet to accomplish these holiday practices like I plan:

1. Bake some sort of Christmas cookie without burning them or messing them up somehow.
2. Go Sledding.
3. Make a snowangel/snowman
4. Buy anyone a Christmas present. ( Honestly I need to get on that a.s.a.p.)
5. Roast Chestnuts under an open fire. ( Ha, j/k just like the song)
6. Create some type of dinner including ham.

This is my first Christmas without being at home, which sorta makes me sad. Not gunna lie.
I am already as we speak missing my mom's side of the family/ and g-ma Janets Christmas family get togethers this weekend, due to the fact I could not get off of work. So as they are opening up presents, eating ham among other GREAT GREAT foods, Beth will be stuck in a dark, smokey bar, serving nasty-minded drunk guys, and rude un-tipping females all weekend long. Okay, not all my customers are like that, but sometimes I feel this way.. just a little exageration. No, the reason I couldn't get out of work is because this weekend is graduation for the unniversity here, which in return means, VERY VERY busy nights. Which equals out to LOTS AND LOTS OF MOO-LA for Bethy! Yay!! Which I suppose works out, since I need to go Christmas shopping.

Don't feel too bad for me ladies and gentlemen, I do get to spend my Christmas Eve and Christmas Day at my dads in Chicago, so it wont be too bad.. Im just hoping I get the presents I want... Please dont dissapoint me daddy! :)
My list is as follows:
1. Nice Digital Camera
2. A pink Ipod Mini
3. Lots of Earrings
4. Other types of Jewelery
6. Bath stuff
7. A fuzzy Bath robe from Victoria Secret
8. Gift Certificates to places such as: Hollister, Target, Walmart( groceries! Hells yeah!), movie theatures, etc.
9. Money$$$

And Im sure Im forgetting more, but thats all I can think of off the top of my head.

Well, its time for me to leave now, hope everyone is excited about Christmas as I am...

As a shirt my sister owns once said............... TIS THE SEASON TO GET NAUGHTY.....


B

Monday, December 12, 2005

Heartbreaker

Me and Trevor had lunch together the other day.. I really enjoyed his company and realized how much I missed being around him. Before I left his house I started crying. Crying because I thought he was what I needed the most, and crying for hurting him and breaking things off without trying to make things better. I drove home. I was two mins. shy of calling him and letting him know how I wanted to make things better. My phone rings.. its my friend Cassie. She tells me she needs to talk to me, and says its important. She comes over to my house and informs me of some rather interesting information. To make the story short she told me that for the past month and a half Trevor has been seeing this girl named Sarah. Sarah and him have had "relations" together before I was ever in the picture. Supposevely they have been fooling around and Trevor has used my car to pick her up while Im at work. This hurts in so many different ways to describe. The last month and a half we were fine. We were probably the best we've ever been. I dont understand. His argument is that it never happened and shes making it all up.. What?? I mean this girl isnt out to get me, she doesnt even know me. Why would she outta the blue tell one of her best friends(Cassie) this and be lying to cause trouble. It doesnt add up. I want to believe Trevor so bad but his story doesnt back up anything.. How can you drop me off at work go see another girl then come get me and act like things are okay.. If I were cheating I would feel so guilty and act funny.. I sensed no sign of guiltyness in his eyes ever. I have truly been played for a fool.. This seems to be a routine in my relationships.. I dont get it. I think Im a good girlfriend. So why does every guy I begin to care about make me feel worthless?
It doesnt make sense.

B

Thursday, December 08, 2005

You know what really grinds my gears...

If you don't know that saying.. you need to watch Family Guy more often. It's pretty much the best t.v. show ever!
No but really... what really grinds my gears is when someones dancing out on the dance floor and there making a really stupid face while dancing.. I hate that... Why can't you just dance without some goofy looking expression as well? Some people look like there honestly retarded, some bite their bottom lip, and others just look stupid in their own little way.. It bugs the shit outta me. When Im dancing I just look cute.. and theres no doubting that.

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Single Life again...

Me and Trevor broke up. I'm not really as sad as I thought I'd be. Call me a bitch if you'd like.. I dont mind. I mean don't get me wrong we had a lot of fun together and he means a lot to me. I know Im going to miss him, and eventually I might feel sad/lonely. We'll see..
The reasoning for this breakup is like follows:
I NEED MY SPACE!! I feel like whenever I'm not working me and him are together. He is always either in my bed, or Im in his... Some nights I just want to go home and go to sleep alone. Don't get me wrong I love cuddling, but theres nights where Id rather cuddle my comforter and kitten instead.
I feel like I don't have any bit of a social life and Im neglecting certain things in my life, in particualar friends. He has definatly neglected his friends as well. I need some time to be by myself and my friends and just figure out what I want. Maybe we'll get back together.. who knows.. but for now.. IM SINGLE, and for me thats just fine and dandy..
I still have my little Boo Boo to cuddle at night, and for those reallllllllllly lonely nights.. I have my little friend "The Rabbit". Oh yea..
Maybe I'll regret all of this... I guess we'll have to wait and see.
B

Friday, December 02, 2005

Kissy Kissy...


It appears that lately almost everytime little ol Bethy gets hammered she tends to make out with girls. Last night for instance.. theres this girl named Katrina who works at the bar we went to. I was sorta jealous of her due to the fact she used to somewhat date my now boyfriend Trevor. Oh yea, and she is super cute, and has Angelina Jolie lips. We were getting along fine, then outta pretty much nowwhere I was making out with her. I was sitting on the bar and she was leaning over. The memories of this are very fuzzy, but my boyfriend apparently had front row tickets to this show. I think it happened more than once, not sure...

Earlier on that night, before I was loaded, " my girlfriend" walked in the bar... She is the girl I made out with last week. Everyone shes friends with calls me her girlfriend and everyone Im around says the same.. Its a little weird though, because I seem to run into her pretty much everywhere I go. So at times this can be ackward.
The same night I made out with "my girlfriend" I also made out with my best friend Megan.
And these are girls in the past week and a half... these arent all the girls Ive ever made out with..

WHATS WRONG WITH ME PEOPLE? Maybe its because I like attention? Maybe women are more appealing in a sense when Im crunk. Who knows? Is this a problem? HAHA.


B